I am not a nice person. I feel bad about it but it is the truth.
I want the city to burn down, so I can feel free. I want people to suffer with me, feel bad when I feel bad. I want to tell them all the mean things I think of them and let my words cut them deeper than words, bleed their emotions out. I want my crush to be happy, with me or else be alone and lonely as I am.
I want to be a Dark Queen that rules an empire full of my minions, I want to be the crazy doctor that finds how to make zombies, I want to be the dragon that kills the prince and steals the princess, I want to be the crazy cat lady that screws with everyones mind. I want to rule the world with iron and fire.
I am not a nice person, and I want to be free.
I have a meaness inside me, real as an organ. – Gillian Flynn, Dark Places